2/9

we can't do and get every thing we want

sometimes I would have a lot of things to say..but I keep it..

I don't know how to say it out..I don't know how to let myself to feel better..

I should say, I have "forgotten"..

I could cry easily..but it changed to "past tense", but not a "can"..

sometimes I wish I could get back to the past, to be dependence, to many people..

some of my friends could feel my changes..me, too..

but I've changed, to be more independent..

just I hope that, I could depend on some people~

but, I can't do that..

past is past, we can't always think back to the past, but fight for our future..

9/8

we can't do anything if there is already a result come out..

we only can accept it because we can't change it to be what we want..

the most important is the "support" from the others..

I am really not in the mood recently, and I can't describe it..

It seems.....the "lonely" feeling..but I don't know it's in which aspect..

I miss my friends..all of my friends..

Especially those who are not in Malaysia now..I miss them......badly....

30/7

I've read a person's blog today...haha, finally he said out that....SELFISH

I am selfish....maybe...

but he really doesn't understand what I think, how I think and why I would be like that...

explanation is useless now...if you already felt that, I have nothing to say, because you don't understand...about what I care and what I think about "hurt"...

on THAT day when I asked you, you don't know my exact feeling...

what I care is not that you don't help in that...it's just a simple sentence that you said to me, it did hurt me...because it made me feel that YOU are NOT like who I know...

you were my dearest friend, it's impossible that you don't know how did I feel...

but if you think that I am selfish, then I am!!!

whatever you think, just be like that, I can't say anything...

years' relationship, it would be ended at here...I can't stop it...

maybe I've never thought at your side...I say sorry here....

but I know, we couldn't be the dearest friends to each other anymore...

because I care about you, that's why I felt hurt on that day...

because I care about you, that's why I felt disappointed...

because I care about you, that's why I cried...

you know that you were important to me...

I felt sad and angry about that, but it's not because you don't help me...

I don't hope to explain anymore, because you totally don't understand...

because, in your point of view, I am SELFISH!!!

24/7

突然间，脑海浮现很多画面。
我享受单身，但，我更享受被呵护的感觉。
过去的我追不回来，但我希望我未来的日子会很开心。
我希望，我身边有个人，让我依靠。
在我觉得无助的时候，有个人能陪着我。
我享受和另一半牵着手，一起吃东西，一起逛街。
哎呀！！！！！！！！！！

9/7

我要丢掉我现在的假面具，做回原本的我。
想当年，我是多么的快乐~
想当年，我并没有这么多的悲伤。
现在，有时只想找一些人谈天，但感觉上却是被敷衍~
我！要做回原本的我~